dream @ 15-to-16 sept 09'

well, fucked up:

i'm on that place,
i meet someone,
we get the fuck out,
it's a fucking high building,
suddenly everything burns from the horizon,
(literally, a burning evening)
everything fucking burns,
everything's that red-white color and crushes at touch
~...


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burnt offerings #

dream @september 6to7th

well, yesterday i went to bed relatively soon... at 1:xx am
everything was fine, i wanted to write something, or draw but i went straight to my bed, put my alarm on and some music to sleep...
at first i couldn't sleep, i woke up like 4, 5 times each 5 or 10 minutes (to drink some water, get my shirt off, go to the bathroom, look on the mirror)
i started to get sleepy, i accept i had a smile on my face, i think i'm actually happy, i was a bit upset because i think i lost most of my friends (my best friend), felt like it was stolen from me...
but i slept...

here goes my dream:

it all started with me, waking up at a department, uhm, i don't know where, it was like the 5th floor and it wasn't too early to wake up. i felt it was like 11:30am (i always have to get up at 7pm and go to the school)...i was like shocked, i knew nothing except i was there in that apartment. i got up like at a normal day, i started to act randomly, not even trying to get out of there. i went to the window, then i noticed i was at a high floor, it looked like a nice day outside, a bit cloudy but nice day. i remembered in my dream, someone once said that you can't -read- something if you're dreaming, that you may see a book in a dream, but not read it...then i looked around and there was a yellow with red notebook, with a white label, and had something written with a pencil. i read it, (that's what i actually forced myself to remember) at the moment it was so clear to my eyes!, it said something like -Hello-, at the time i looked the notebook's cover, my head started to shock, my view got a bit blurry and distorted, then i thought 'maybe you actually CAN read...it's just a bit hard'. then i thought about phoning someone, and i did...i called her on the telephone and we were talking as we normally would, but suddenly i started to feel like, emotionless...i don't remember what i said, but it was like 'something was going to happen'...suddenly it all started to be really FAST...suddenly i went down and i was outside of the building, looking at my apartmen's window from down there...(i confess those apartments remind me a LOT about those apartments in puebla, near my uncle's car workshop...the difference with those apartments is that they have parking lots, with lots of rusty chains and metal doors, the ones on my dream had green bushes). suddenly i was up there, again on the apartment, it started to 'fast forward' again and i got a flash view from down where i was a few seconds earlier, it wasn't day anymore, it was later, like 5 or 6pm, gray clouds, intense heat i could feel...then, my window's apartment, which had white curtains, was burning...
fire was coming out of that window, i didn't even try to get my valuable things out of the room because i knew it was -not- my home...i ran to other room, past the elevator and the corridor... it's like a dining room, with no big table, it was empty...i look some of my familiars there, among people i did not even know, but i felt like some sense of company and support with them, i remember some old man&woman...building's employees...remember especially a boy, like 14, 15y/o...and MAYBE a little girl...they were there, all worried, but doing nothing about the fire.
then i saw some big old windows and instantly thought to break them up.
as there were no chairs, no table, NOTHING at all on the room, only punched the dark grey glass, it seemed like very thin...i broke it, eventually saw hope on their faces...i looked outside and i saw some old built-in ladder on the outer wall of the building...but the window was a bit small and not everyone could get out easily...then we hear some men up there, they were from medical service, dressed all white and with white latex gloves and a stretcher...and saw there wasn't fire anymore...like everything was over...they started to evacuate people...on the elevator
fuck's sake, i hear it fall down fast, then crash...everyone were dead, except for myself, that went to the room again to see if there was no fire, and it wasn't fire...nor ashes, nor any kind of burn...

i woke up
6:35, as my alarm sounded
i turned it off and slept a little bit, i woke before 7o'clock and went out...